Had two of those back to back. If I'm honest I've had 6 years like that back to back. Since this pattern continues, I must be creating it, right? Or, perhaps I haven't learned what I am supposed to from this situation, thus it keeps presenting itself?
I don't know. All I know is how I feel--it isn't good. The joy has left me and I am exhausted. I don't feel like I'm getting anywhere. I feel so ineffective and worn. I don't want to feel this way anymore and lost to know how to find a way out or yet another way to cope.
God help me. Help me find a way to deal with this. And a place in life where I can make a difference. Where the joy can return to my heart.
